Last week was the first period in over three years where I took a random break from this blog. It felt incredible. I didn’t realize how much I was craving a disconnect from this space until I did it. As I’ve alluded to here and there over the past few weeks, life as of late has not been smooth sailing. I’ve had a pretty rough start to the year in my personal life, and everything really came to a head in the last seven days.
In some ways my personal life is front and center on this blog, and in others, hardly at all. I can write a food post or mention products I’m loving and easily gloss over any real life details. And as much as I want to keep this space authentic, it is first and foremost a professional outlet, and there are also some of life’s details that are just meant to be kept private (at least for me personally). But at the same time, logistically speaking, I’ve made some major changes in my life in the last few weeks that will impact this space.
Towards the beginning of this year, my current relationship came to a close. Because a relationship involves two people and not just one, I will not be diving deep into the details here. But frankly, there’s not much to dive into. This was an incredibly sad, but drama free parting of ways. It was two adults recognizing that although there was a lot (and I mean a lot) of good, there wasn’t enough for the long term. Having spent over six years together made that an incredibly hard call to make. I’ve spent the last few months completely engulfed in processing all of it, and am slowly starting to see beyond the clouds. To say I’m deep in a period of self growth would be a huge understatement.
But the move has happened and things feel brighter. Though I was so sad to leave sweet Williamsburg (and Brooklyn in general) behind, it’s exhilirating to be in Manhattan and in my very own space. And of course the decorating process has me giddy beyond belief. That of course will be well documented here! February was probably one of the bleakest months of my entire life, but March has me feeling hopeful and excited. There are still days where I have a hard time grasping how much my life has changed in the past few months, but then others where it puts a spring in my step.
Though I’m writing all of this, I’m by no means asking for your pity. Breakups are a necessary part of life, and up until this point, I hadn’t had too many major ones. Part of me thinks I was kind of due. As hard as it is, what the experience has taught me (and is still very much teaching me) about myself has been more valuable than I can put into words. As Erin says, in the valleys we really do grow. That phrase could not be more true right now. Things will slowly start to go back to normal this week. I’m excited to break in my new (very tiny) kitchen and really make this place feel like a home. So lots of good food, design inspiration, and all things spring to come your way shortly. Thanks for hanging with me these past few weeks and months. xo Clara
(Apologies for the multiple postings on this post, guys! Had some snafus with WordPress.)